have you ever did something that you wish you never do? and you feel like killin yourself whenever you think about it? well, this happens to me all the time. i can admit that i've done things (that i think really bad when it is actually nothing) so much in my life and i can't lie, i think there's more to come. i don't forgive people easily so i destroyed someone's life. and throw people out of my life whenever i want. i treat people bad and ignore them because of their looks. and maybe say something about their looks or how they dressed. ya Allah, how i wish i'm a better person. i'm selfish sometimes and i don't care about people's feeling as long as i'm happy. i did something bad to get what i want. i don't want to be mean. i feel bad but i don't even say sorry to that person. i mean, to the people. i lied to save myself and get her trouble instead. there are also things i'm so ashamed to admit. i'm ashamed of myself.
sorry. i know sorry means nothing nowadays, but i'm sorry. i truly am sorry. to the people that i hurt in the past, and maybe some of you may still hate me, i'm sorry. do you know how hard it is to hear me say "sorry" even when i'm wrong? Mount Everest means nothing compared to my ego. so here i am, saying sorry for the things i've done in the past. hoping that those people will forgive me someday. i promise i won't repeat the same mistake again. i think i've changed, i'm trying not to even do a single bad stuff. i repeat, trying. oh and btw, if you don't like something that i do, please do tell me. if you don't have the guts the say it straight to my face, here's the link to my formspring.
btw, do i making a fool out of myself in this blog? do i say something wrong? tell me! tell me!
thank you for wasting your time reading my lame blog, good night! much love. xx
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