Bless

20 days left and I would like to apologize to each and every one of you for my wrong doings, rough words that I threw at you, things I said behind your back, my sometimes-horrible-behavior or anything that might hurt or annoyed you. Pray for my glory will you? Thanks! May Allah reward you immensely for your kindness. Much love.

Lessons in Life

Hello butterflies! I know it's been a while since the last time I updated my blog. Thousands of apologize for those who are waiting. I have been a bee with things at school and have to go to evening-till-night tuition classes plus my spm trial had just finished. Believe me when I said the papers was extremely tough!!! D: a lot of things happened in my life and keep me wonder "Did I make a right choice?" "What happened if I did this instead of that? Will that change my life forever or become worse?" I should throw away the questions out of my life and be proud of myself. Do you know why? Because if things didn't happen like they were supposed to be like now.. and the past, I would never be me; the girl I'm proud to call, myself! These are the list of lessons that I learnt as far as i could remember. Check it out!

• Even the one person that wasn't suppose to ever let you down probably will.
• You should never be mad at something that had already past.
• Never make someone your everything, cause if you lose them, you'll have nothing and that's awful.
• Don't trust people easily if you don't wish to be fooled and hurt.
• Some things are meant to be broken, but not the heart of yours, not without your permission.
• You eventually will do the things that you dislike people do, it's not your intention at all but it happens naturally. 
• Time can heal all wounds but the scars remain forever.
• You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it will get harder every time.
• You will break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
• You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
• You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could have, would have happened - or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on.
• Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.
• You can never cover up your mistakes with "no one is perfect". 
• Do the best and you will never be forgotten.
• Trust takes years to earn, seconds to break and forever to repair.
• When a girl keeps on going back to a guy who treats her bad, it's not because she's dumb. It's because she hopes maybe someday he'll change.
• I like revenge better; an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth, a hand for a hand, a foot for a foot.
• My best is still not good enough.
• Never give up, never surrender!
• "When I get older, I will be wiser." - TRUE.
• People will always have mean comments, people will always talk bad about you. Always, and that is never gonna change.
• Think before you speak, be extra careful with the words that are coming out from your mouth, don't let people use it against you.

Despite all of the things that happened, I know there are more to come and I definitely will make more mistakes and then regret it, but for me what important is I will learn from my mistakes.

Tips on Ramadan

Here are some tips to go through this Ramadan. Hope it is useful.

• drink fucking lot of water during sahur and iftar to keep yourself from dehydrated
• always make sure you rub off the dead cells on your lips and apply lip balm at night.
• apply moisturizing lotion to keep your skin healthy, soft and beautiful!
• you should not go out without wearing sunblock. The weather is damn hot nowadays.
• eat as much fruits as you can
• eat a healthy diet and don't waste your food
• avoid having spicy food for berbuka or sahur. 

semoga ramadan ini menjadi ramadan yang terbaik utk semua!

A whale of a time II

Okay when we arrived there, we used garmin to locate the location of the hotel, but the garmin can't find it. We searched the hotel for about half an hour, went here and there but still can't find the hotel. D: kak attiah booked & printed the map to the hotel earlier and it gave the bb scan code, so I scanned the code but.. scary that the bb said it cannot locate the hotel too. At that moment we all thought.. "Does this hotel really exist?"

After some time, we finally found the hotel. It was just at the first place we started to find it. Then we found out that it was a new building, no wonder the devices can't locate it. We parked our car, got into our room and got fresh up. Cause the main reason we went there was about to happen! Hehe we went to dinner at portugese settlement because as far as i know, it's the only place that got butter garlic scallop and baked otak-otak!!! Hehe that's our main reason. I ate so much that I was so full I can't even breath. We took some photos and went to the Menara Taming Sari. I think we were so lucky that time because our group is the last trip and by the time we got into it, there were fireworks lighted up for an event nearby. It was pretty amazing! 

Yah and we were exhausted that night so we didn't do anything more fun than this. But the next day is even better!

We woke up and got ready to go to Dataran Pahlawan to have our brunch. I had tomyam with nasi putih which is one of my fav food. Oh and, remember the mini coopers we saw at the highway? They went there too! I saw booths sold weird stuff there that I don't care to give attention to. I think the event named Mini Classic or something. The most unique or got people's attention the most will win a prize. I don't know, it was just a guess. We took some photos again and roamed around Dataran Pahlawan. Here is the funny part, two guys stopped us suddenly and asked whether we can help them to be models at their booth. Drink models. Hahaha! It was um.. Revive Energy drinks I guess? We don't want to be rude to say no, so we just go along with them. I think they only did that to upload it on facebook and make people think a lot of people went to their booth. Haha they were really nice though. Ah then we decided to go to have some cupcakes at Wondermilk. They have the best cupcakes ever! 

Me and acha went back to ipoh at 10.30pm. I think the well time spent was so precious. So there it was, a whale of a time of mine. :)

A whale of a time I

Last Friday me and chacha went to KL by ets. My mom bought the platinum tickets when we usually buy the silver one. And that was my mom's biggest mistake. We took off from Ipoh and everything went just great until the ets stops at Batu Gajah. Here is the worst part of all, the sits opposite us are taken by two nigga!!!!!!! Namely Samad that sit near the window and Hamid that sit at the other side. I'm not being a racist but they smell.. bad. I mean really bad! Didn't they shower at least once a day?!!! The weather is bloody hot and we Malaysians shower two times a day. D: me and chacha spent almost 30 minutes laughing at each other face because of the smell. Then I got a bright idea; SPRAY OUR SIT WITH MY PERFUME. (I'm very glad I bring my perfume everywhere that I go!) chacha didn't agree with my genius plan. She worried that the niggas realized what we intended to do. I said the niggas and the people would never found out who did it but they will know why.. So I waited until Hamid fell asleep then I quickly took my perfume I spray as much as possible. Ahhh then everything went back to normal again. Until Hamid woke up and we smell that awful smell again..

My eldest sister, kak attiah picked us up at the KL Central. And we went straight to her office. She made us did some of her work while we waited for naura (quite a long time) to arrive at Kepong Central to have dinner together. Only an hour or two later she told us she already had her dinner. Wtf?! I can die of starvation because of her! So we went to a malay food restaurant and had tomyam campur without her. Then urgh the ktm broke down and she had to use bus to come to us and when kak attiah wanted to ask where the bus dropped her, her battery went out. So we went to kak attiah's apartment at Kepong and waited for naura to use her brain to think how to charge her phone's battery up and contact us. I was reading a magazine when naura called kak attiah and picked her up at somewhere I didn't bother to know. Chacha fell asleep, I was tired so only kak attiah went to pick her up. When both of them came back later, naura told me that she charged her phone through her laptop. That was quiet genius for naura to think that way I thought.

It was Saturday when we woke up at 9am and got ready for a friend of kak attiah's kenduri at Muar, Johor. Guess what? It takes 2 hours for both of us to settle up everything! Haha. So the journey started. We gone quite far when kak attiah stop at a petronas station to get something to eat while we were on our way to Muar. Then we saw a group of mini cooper passing through us. They looked like they were having a convoy or something. Funny when chacha saw a mini cooper got lost and tried to look for their friends. We reached Muar, went to the kenduri, had a little laugh and went straight to Melaka.

to be continued..

answers to questions

Okay somebody asked me how I take care of my face, hair and skin. so here we go!

Face;

I will make sure I wash my face two times a day. The first one is in the morning and the second one is at night, just before I go to sleep. First, I will use a nivea brand cleanser to wash my face. I wash my hand with soap first to make sure there is no bacteria on my hand and put a little bit of the cleanser on my hand and rub it off to make it soapy and bubblish. I start with my cheek and then my nose, my lip area, and my forehead. Then I wash my face with warm water and dry it off with a clean towel. Secondly, I will put two or three drops of toner(the same type and brand) on a face-cotton-pad and apply it all over my face cincai-ly and quickly since I have theory that bacteria will attack your face after 4 seconds. :p third and lastly, I will apply a little bit of moisturizer(also the same type and brand) all over my face. If I am going out, I will quickly put on some BB Cream so that it will blend in naturally. Then I just tap a little bit of compact powder on my face.

Hair;

First, I comb my hair before I take a bath so that it will not strangle when I wash it later.  Then I will wet my hair with warm water, and squeeze just a little bit of shampoo on my hand and start to massage my hair. I wouldn’t scratch my scalp at this time as that action will damage your scalp. So I will just massage it using my fingers. Then I will apply some conditioner with the same type and brand and leave it for 2 or 3 minutes then I wash it with warm water thoroughly. Once a week I will pamper my hair with hair mask with the same type and brand. I only apply hair mask just at the lower part of my hair for 5 minutes. I squeeze my hair at a dry towel instead of rubbing it like the one they always do in movies. I think it will cause damage to the hair. If I'm not mistaken, split hair. 

Skin;

I’m not sure what is the person meant by ‘skin’ but I just go for how I take care of my body skin la eh? I will use body scrub sponge once or twice a week and apply moisturizing body lotion. I also use a body mist, daily.  

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Okay I hope that explains everything. Let's go for my daily routine during school day and holidays.

During school day; 

I wake up, perform my prayer, take a shower and get ready to go to school. I crawl to school, get back home from school and have my lunch perform my prayer. Then I will go straight to bed and take a nap. I wake up and take a shower. Half an hour before my tuition class starts, I will go through my notes and perform my prayer. Then I go to my tuition class until 10pm. I get back home, perform my prayer, have dinner, study a little bit, surf the internet while texting with the owner of my heart. Then I go to sleep just when he goes to sleep. 

During public holidays;

I always stay up late the night before the holiday. So I wake up to perform my subuh prayer and go back to sleep. I know it's bad but I can't help it. :( wake up at noon, watch tv and have brunch and watch tv and perform my prayer, watch tv and watch tv and go back to sleep. Always plan to study at days like this but never actually did it. (I guess I only become an ant during school days) Then I try to think of something fun to do and perform my prayer. Have a snack and proceed to watch tv. Perform my prayer, have dinner, internet, perform my prayer and tumblr-ing all night long! Actually my routines during holidays are not fixed. This not the exact routine but most of it, yah. If I go out at that day, then the whole routine will change and go upside down. Usually, my day depends on my mood. :)

dearest you

You are the one who I would fight for. No matter how many arguments we get into, I'll stick with you in the end. I don't care how many times you hurt me unintentionally, as long as you can prove it to me that you deserve to be forgiven. Ahhh I don't know, it's just something about you that caught my attention. So far, nobody can do the things that you do.

Change

Change. Change can be a very good thing or all the way round. For some people, change is a scary thing. I used to think that way too. But now I say change is a good thing because I've seen a good change in someone with my own eyes.

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There was this guy, who was(still do) the sweetest thang in the world, captured a girl's heart with his sweetness and kind words once upon a time. They fell in love and thought they are inseparable. At least she thought it that way. Everything was perfect, everyone loved seeing them together until one day, things fell apart. The guy went to college to further his study and since then they always fought, cried and yell at each other almost everyday. Sometimes, they can't even remember why the hell they were fighting. After a few bunch of heartaches and heartbreaks, and a few episodes of drama, guess what? The guy who broke her heart is now the one who glues them back together, trying to make her the happiest girl in the world. And he made it, the girl, too, does feel like she is the happiest girl in the world. The guy who used to be blind, not seeing the girl's love and sacrifices before, now begin to appreciate all the littlest things that the girl does. The guy now is the one who sacrifices everything for this girl. He completely changed from a sweet guy, to an asshole, to such a responsible gentleman.

THE END!

Haha! I know this is not a very good story as I skipped a lot, but let's just pray that the last change would be the last and the banana won't fruits two times... Whuttt? 

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Another change that I'm experiencing is, the environment at my home. Well, as you all may know, my sister, Naura is now studying at Uniten. We were so close and almost inseparable. All this while, I always knew who I should turn to when I have a problem. I would open the door to our room, I'm pretty sure she will be on our bed, eating something. So I would climb our bed and then tell her everything. She will solve my problem instantly. Now I have to grab my phone, click bbm application, search her name, TYPE my problem, wait for her reply and cry alone. I don't like this at all. But like people say, life goes on! I'm sure I will get used to this new-awkward-environment! I'm a big girl now, I should learn to take care of myself and solve my own problem. I know I can survive alone. 

Summary for the past three weeks

Hello beautiful earthlings! :) It has been a long time since the last time I updated my blog. Yes, I've been busy like a bee. Flying here and there to make sure I do well in this Mid-Year Examination. Well long story short, I was quite lucky this month. Everything that I read and memorized came out on almost every paper. I thank Allah for that. But not today. For Biology Paper 3, rumor said that it's either experiment about speed of movement and rate of transpiration of a leafy plant, and different quantities of water intake on urine output. So I innocently went memorized the urine one, not knowing that it was the other one that I was supposed to plan on an experiment. So there goes my Biology paper. :(

Hey don't get me wrong, I am not being proud.  Like for Chemistry, I don't think I do well because I didn't learn Electrolysis, Acid and Base and Salts chapters yet. But I will SOMEDAY! :p same goes to other subjects, there are still a few chapters that I need to master. Well buckle up, people! Cause I'm on my way to the top. XD hehe do pray for me that I won't fall and die or something. :O

Last week, 19th of May, I went to Bangi to send my beloved sister to Uniten. Poor her because she was sick the first day she stepped her feet there. Since I was born, I am the one who take a good care of her when she sicks. It's not that she doesn't do the same thing, but she is not good at things like this. Too bad I can't stay there. Believe me, I'd stay there, take care of her and make sure she's okay if I could.
P/S: I take care the whole family when they sick too.

The best thing about having a blog is that you can write about the love of your life. But in my situation, it's a whole lot different story. For some reasons, I can't write things about him. One thing for sure is that everything is so perfect that I can't let myself accept the fact. This is too damn good to be true. Sucks to be me aite?

stay classy!

This post is specially dedicated to girls out there. The main reason I decided to write this is because I, as a girl feel damn ashamed with how some girls out there behaving. How can they lowered their standards and be so cheap? Ahhh I don't know how to explain this situation but listen and open your eyes, the boys might want you now cause of course, everyone wants cheap things and when the things are broken they'll just throw it away like a piece of trash.

Yeah I admit that I'm not good myself too a long time ago, but shit! they still talk about my past until now. No matter how hard I try to erase the thoughts out of my mind, somehow they still haunt the f out of me.  I don't want that to happen to anybody. But guess what? Alhamdulillah, I couldn't care less anymore. My family and my best friends know I've changed for good.

Okay back to the main topic. Girls, don't bother about  boys saying "you sombong ah" and all that crap, at least you know where you stand. Don't be so easy or easily fall for any guy. If you have a boyfriend, a sweet and faithful boyfriend, don't go cheat on him. Poor that guy! Have a self-respect. It's okay to be friendly, but make sure friendly means really friendly, not flirty! Last but not least, pandai la jaga diri as a girl. If you know what I mean. :O

easy come, easy go.

To those irreplaceable people in my life; this picture explains everything that I honestly want to say but I didn't because I don't want to be the chaser. Of course it's because of my stupid ego too. Just.. don't leave.

people

Some people come, and some people go. But in some cases, those who left might come back. What scares you the most is that they might left you once again and leave you paralyzed.

an innocent dream

I know I'm just 17 y/o but I already have a perfect dream of my own.

In my dreams, I can see where myself in 10 years from now. I will become a successful dermatologist. A perfect career that I always dreamed to be since I was a little girl. With the money I earned, I will make a change to the world. There will no more starving kids in Somalia. I will try to help them to survive this cruel world with all that I can do. But if it is beyond my power and strength, I think the least i could do is help those poor orphans at the orphanage home get a proper education or maybe a comfortable place to live while they are growing up. Or maybe help the old folks get enough medical attention. These have been my dream since forever.

I can see myself wearing a white dress, being proposed by my perfect dream guy once again on one knee with a perfect ring in his hand. I'm not sure where is it cause actually I didn't really finish my dream and I can't imagine it properly but I think it was during night. I can see beautiful lights around us. Guess what? We take a flight to the Paris as soon as akad nikah, kenduri at the cruise ship are over. Yes, kenduri at the cruise ship.

Few years later, I see myself at home. A pent house. With my children, a son and a daughter. Twins. :) in the family room, we paste almost every picture of us family on a wall. From the first picture of me and my husband, to the proposal, to the honeymoon at the Paris(hehe) to the pictures of our children growing up. And until the end of my life, I'm the happiest person alive. With the perfect career, perfect husband, having the perfect quarrel sometimes, perfect twin and perfect life, why wouldn't I?

...and that is, the perfect dream of mine.

I know, no one knows what will happen in the future. But dreaming is legal, right?

miracle

It's kinda funny how some people just don't realise that they are asking one not to do this 'thing' that they don't like when actually they are in the same situation or maybe used to do that thing. You must know that this miracle thing is happening to me. What I don't understand is that, how can you not see that I'm happy? Yes, my heart might break into a trillion pieces with this choice I'm making, but I have never been this happy before. Isn't that all matters? 

Hey, I don't ask much but.. just be there when I needed you the most. Just like I always do to you. Maybe you don't even realise that. All you care about is yourself and your feeling, you never thought of anyone else.This choice might not be right but if being with him is wrong, then I don't wanna be right. I'm sure if you were me, you would do the same thing. Choosing things that will make you happy cause you can't think straight since your life have been miserable like, forever. Now that this miracle is happening, how can you not choose that? Even if this happiness might be just temporary. Even if you're not even sure about the future. 

the craves

so these are the things I've been craving for the past few weeks.

• oysters with lemon
• lobsters
• crabs
• steamed prawn
• shrimp balls
• shark's fin soup
• bbq salmon

anddd

• cupcakes
• coffee bean's pure caramel
• starbucks' hazelnut hot chocolate
• oreo cheesecakes
• candy floss
• chocolate moist cake
• patchi's chocolates
• haagen dazs' caramel and biscuts ice cream
• baskin robbin's cotton candy ice cream

last but not least

• dearest him

hair is everything

Hello earthlings! Today I would like to post some tips on how to take care of your hair. As you all may know my sister naura, she once said to me that I only look okay because of my hair. If my hair decides to be a bitch for that day, then I'll look horrible for the rest of the day. I agreed. So my hair is basically my everythang.

Have you ever experience bad hair day? For some people you may have experience it like, for once a week or two. I don't mean to be proud or whatever you may call it, but my hair always dengar cakap(it's what i call, if you know what i mean). Bad hair day only attack the crap outta me once or twice a year.

Let me tell you one of the stories of my childhood. This may sound stupid but please don't laugh :( okay, when I was still a baby, my hair don't grow properly like other babies' hair. My hair grow a little bit of here and there. It's very ugly so one of my maid shaved my hair bald. Since then my hair never grow back. Everyone thought that I was a baby boy. So my mother bought me all kinds of hair products to make my hair grow back. After all her hard work, you can see the result now. ;)

So I very appreciate my precious hair. And one of the reason I cut my hair short because my hair kept falling and I think I was getting bald. Every time i shampoo-ed my hair, I swear a lock of my hair fall. Now that my hair is short, it's kinda easy to take care of.

Sorry if I annoyed you with lame and unnecessary things to be told. So the main highlighted topic of the day is about to start. Enjoy!

How To Take Care Of Your Precious Hair;

• Do not shampoo your hair too often. Once in 2 days should be more than enough.
• Your shampoo should be a good-quality products.
• Use complete hair products. That's include shampoo, conditioner and hair mask. Using hair mask once a week should be fine.
• Use hair oil on damp hair every time and after you shampoo your hair. (coconut oil is the best option and only use it once a week)
• Do not scratch your scalp when you shampoo your hair. I know how great it feels to scratch your scalp but this action may damage your scalp and worsen your scalp condition. You should massage your scalp using your fingers instead. Trust me, I don't believe it myself at first. But hey, listen to the expert. ;)
• Do not comb your hair when it is damp. At this stage, your damp hair is very brittle and it may snap.
• Brush your hair regularly and GENTLY to encourage healthy hair grows and brush out old hair styling creams or sprays for those who apply it.
• I don't recommend you to use hair straighteners or hair curlers too often as this may damage your hair. But if you are the stubborn type of person, apply some hair oil before use them to avoid hair becomes dry.
• Do not rub your hair with towel but squeeze your hair using the towel. Damp hair means it is at the most brittle stage.
• Drink a lot of water and eat healthy. Your hair condition depends on your lifestyle too.

So I guess that's everything you should know. Hope some of this tips might help you. Thanks! xx

nobody

I start to build up these walls around my heart so that nobody could hurt me. Yeah, I will fall in love with nobody too. I'll wait for that one fine guy that can make me fall so in love with him and catch me while I'm falling. The guy that is a true gentleman and perhaps an educated person or maybe good-looking with the hot body(it's a must muahaha).

The guy who would climb over these walls I built and brave enough to prove he's not like the others. The one that stand by me through thick and thin, who will fight for me to make me stay and keep me safe till the very end. The one who showers me with love for every single day of forever. The guy who will treat me like how i should be treated.

 The guy who don't give a damn about others but me. The one that is good at making surprises. The one that my mama likes. The guy who look at me like I'm the prettiest, like I'm the only one and no other girls get the same treat like I do.

Maybe I'm asking too much, maybe he does not exist. But I'll wait for this guy to come and save me from heartache and heartbreaks.

penat

*inhale&exhale repeatedly* penat penat penat. aku penat lah dengan semua ni. cuti sekolah tak habis lagi tapi mcm2 dah jadi. well i broke up with my boyfriend just now. aku yg mintak. aku tau aku jahat aku tau aku kejam (naura agrees with me), aku tak suka buat mcm ni sbb aku tau mcm mana rasa kena tinggal mcm tu je. tapi aku dah penat. sorry for the unexplainable break up dear exboyfriend. aku pun taktau kenapa. tp aku rasa mcm tak nak ada sesiapa pun skrg ni. aku pun takut juga, sembang aku ni tinggal sembang, tiba2 ada lelaki lain pulak datang keee mane tau kan? insyaAllah dan aku harap sgt2 takde. aku tak nak fokus aku terganggu sebab aku nak straight A's, tu je yg penting sekarang ni sbb aku nak buktikan dekat seseorang. buktikan sesuatu. :]

dan hari ni juga aku pergi karaoke dekat PrinceKTV dengan kawan2 aku. semua tak plan pun, idea datang tiba2 and we just go with the flow. best, walaupun suara kiteorg takde la sedap mana, tp yg penting kami yakin! :'D oh dan aku tak pergi math tuition sebab penat jerit dalam bilik tu. fuh.


ergh masa aku tengah tulis semua ni, tiba2 teringat sesuatu. sesuatu yang aku benciii sangat D: so here it goes;

aku tak sukaaa bila aku terpaksa kawan dengan orang yang aku tak suka sebab kawan aku kawan dengan dia. omg mula2 aku cuba buat baik, tiba2 kene pijak kepala pulak. who the fuck she thinks she is? aku tak peduli, kalau aku tak suka maknanya aku tak suka. penat la nak fake2 dengan orang ni, tak larat dah. tp perangai dia memang tak disukai pun. eh aku tak cakap aku disukai ramai, tapi aku tak kacau orang. dia suka sibuk hal orang. eee benci!

something that can never be changed

have you ever did something that you wish you never do? and you feel like killin yourself whenever you think about it? well, this happens to me all the time. i can admit that i've done things (that i think really bad when it is actually nothing) so much in my life and i can't lie, i think there's more to come. i don't forgive people easily so i destroyed someone's life. and throw people out of my life whenever i want. i treat people bad and ignore them because of their looks. and maybe say something about their looks or how they dressed. ya Allah, how i wish i'm a better person. i'm selfish sometimes and i don't care about people's feeling as long as i'm happy. i did something bad to get what i want. i don't want to be mean. i feel bad but i don't even say sorry to that person. i mean, to the people. i lied to save myself and get her trouble instead. there are also things i'm so ashamed to admit. i'm ashamed of myself.

sorry. i know sorry means nothing nowadays, but i'm sorry. i truly am sorry. to the people that i hurt in the past, and maybe some of you may still hate me, i'm sorry. do you know how hard it is to hear me say "sorry" even when i'm wrong? Mount Everest means nothing compared to my ego. so here i am, saying sorry for the things i've done in the past. hoping that those people will forgive me someday. i promise i won't repeat the same mistake again. i think i've changed, i'm trying not to even do a single bad stuff. i repeat, trying. oh and btw, if you don't like something that i do, please do tell me. if you don't have the guts the say it straight to my face, here's the link to my formspring.
btw, do i making a fool out of myself in this blog? do i say something wrong? tell me! tell me!

www.formspring.me/najjahzahwa

thank you for wasting your time reading my lame blog, good night! much love. xx

abah

well i want to tell you about a guy that means a lot to me. he's my idol, my friend, my hero and he is my abah. i've known him since i was born and i can tell you that, he is the type of father everyone wish to have. he is so understanding, very very patient, funny(sometimes lawak dia tak jadi and it becomes very annoying), he would do anything just to make us family happy. he tries his best to give us everything that we asked for yet we don't really appreciate him. he sacrifices a lot and  he is one of the reason i've been struggling like hell for spm this year. i want to make him proud, i want him to be proud to have a daughter like me. he suffered enough raising his spoiled kids who don't really appreciate him.

when i was still a kid, he took care of me very well every time i'm sick. i mean all of us. actually, until now. i remember this year i had a very bad fever, i have this tonsillitis and i was being me, acting like i can't move at all. he knew that, but he didn't complain at all and he also played along like i was really sick. next time, it will be my turn to take care of him, give everything that he needs and make him happy. and i promise that! he also is the best cook ever. he can cook steamed fish, chicken chop, fried mee/rice/kuey tiaw. but that's just some of it. not like a regular dad huh? hehe. he stress us that study is very important. well i agree with him. in my opinion, if you're not educated and you do bad stuff, people would be like "ohhh no wonder la" or "biasa la tu". but if you do bad stuff and you got brain, people would be like "wuuuuuuu jahat pun tp pandai". i have a lot to say about this awesome guy but if i tell people too much about my dad's awesomeness i'm afraid someone would kidnap him. XD so i guess that's it. bye for now! xx

excitement

ahhh i've been waiting for this week to end! and it's here it's here! the week is over! yeah i know it doesn't really over but hey, the exam is over. so i considered this week is over. the school holiday is coming up, and i don't have plan for anything yet. i've been a lifeless nerd for weeks and i'm sick of it. i need some exercise i need to have some fun and spend time with my girls. i need to stare at cute boys i need to have some self-spa-treatment. i need this, i need that. but.. i know this school holiday is going to end up by me, staying on bed all day and all night long! this happens ALL THE TIME. eh it has been a long time since i don't read the most awesome novel found on this earth; twilight breaking dawn. i miss my edward cullen! have i told you that baby edward is my everything? no? well i do now. and also i want to talk about my exam, well i know i've been pushing myself too hard that i think i almost killed myself but i really really, i mean really hope for the best this exam. sure it is just a monthly test but i was a total wreck last year. and if i got great marks for this monthly test, i know it will motivate me more. i'm pretty confident with my results later, but we'll see how it goes. ;)

random

this girl is amazing!

about a girl

the name is najjah zahwa bt mohd muhd mukhtar but i prefer people to call me wawa. i was born on 22nd sept. 1995 at penang. i stay in ipoh. i have a super dad and a loving mom. i have three sisters and two brother. well today i would like to write 17 facts about myself!

so here we go.

• i'm pretty sure i am not the same girl as i used to be for the past few years. i've changed. but i'm not sure i've changed for good or for worse.
• i almost recover from a massive heartbreak. (which i wish not to talk about)
• my family is my #1 priority and nothing is going to change that. i've learned this the hard way.
• me and my ego are bestfriends. she won't let me do stupid things.
• i try my best not to mind other people's bussiness. and i don't like people to mind mine.
• i cry over the small things. 
• i'm a hardcore lover. 
• the only real competition is myself but i still hate competition.
• i can keep secrets. believe me, i've kept thousands of my friends secret and not even one secret ever slipped from my mouth.
• i'm shy, i'm not friendly and i don't talk and smile to people a lot too. 
• i hate strangers.
• i think people can be very stupid sometimes. it's like they never use their brain when they talk or do something. what a waste!
• i love to bake! and make up too.
• i look like a beast without make up.
• my hair has its own lullaby.
• i hate rude people.
• i don't like the way regrets taste.

i guess that's it for now. i'll write some facts about myself later. xx

the fabulous introduction

Hello cruel world! I've been thinking about writing a blog since forever but I want to make it special on a special date. So, I choose to start blogging, today! The 29th of february which is a rare date so it is special right? Well um, I'm going to write about things that going on my life, what's on my mind, and I maybe will talk about people's stupidity too. So I hope you guys enjoy it! Oh and please, if you disagree with my opinion or have something to say, please tell me. Don't go and tell others. I won't know how to improve myself to be a better person. So I guess that's it. I'm going to have a date with my bed now. Xoxo, much love.