stay classy!

This post is specially dedicated to girls out there. The main reason I decided to write this is because I, as a girl feel damn ashamed with how some girls out there behaving. How can they lowered their standards and be so cheap? Ahhh I don't know how to explain this situation but listen and open your eyes, the boys might want you now cause of course, everyone wants cheap things and when the things are broken they'll just throw it away like a piece of trash.

Yeah I admit that I'm not good myself too a long time ago, but shit! they still talk about my past until now. No matter how hard I try to erase the thoughts out of my mind, somehow they still haunt the f out of me.  I don't want that to happen to anybody. But guess what? Alhamdulillah, I couldn't care less anymore. My family and my best friends know I've changed for good.

Okay back to the main topic. Girls, don't bother about  boys saying "you sombong ah" and all that crap, at least you know where you stand. Don't be so easy or easily fall for any guy. If you have a boyfriend, a sweet and faithful boyfriend, don't go cheat on him. Poor that guy! Have a self-respect. It's okay to be friendly, but make sure friendly means really friendly, not flirty! Last but not least, pandai la jaga diri as a girl. If you know what I mean. :O

easy come, easy go.

To those irreplaceable people in my life; this picture explains everything that I honestly want to say but I didn't because I don't want to be the chaser. Of course it's because of my stupid ego too. Just.. don't leave.

people

Some people come, and some people go. But in some cases, those who left might come back. What scares you the most is that they might left you once again and leave you paralyzed.

an innocent dream

I know I'm just 17 y/o but I already have a perfect dream of my own.

In my dreams, I can see where myself in 10 years from now. I will become a successful dermatologist. A perfect career that I always dreamed to be since I was a little girl. With the money I earned, I will make a change to the world. There will no more starving kids in Somalia. I will try to help them to survive this cruel world with all that I can do. But if it is beyond my power and strength, I think the least i could do is help those poor orphans at the orphanage home get a proper education or maybe a comfortable place to live while they are growing up. Or maybe help the old folks get enough medical attention. These have been my dream since forever.

I can see myself wearing a white dress, being proposed by my perfect dream guy once again on one knee with a perfect ring in his hand. I'm not sure where is it cause actually I didn't really finish my dream and I can't imagine it properly but I think it was during night. I can see beautiful lights around us. Guess what? We take a flight to the Paris as soon as akad nikah, kenduri at the cruise ship are over. Yes, kenduri at the cruise ship.

Few years later, I see myself at home. A pent house. With my children, a son and a daughter. Twins. :) in the family room, we paste almost every picture of us family on a wall. From the first picture of me and my husband, to the proposal, to the honeymoon at the Paris(hehe) to the pictures of our children growing up. And until the end of my life, I'm the happiest person alive. With the perfect career, perfect husband, having the perfect quarrel sometimes, perfect twin and perfect life, why wouldn't I?

...and that is, the perfect dream of mine.

I know, no one knows what will happen in the future. But dreaming is legal, right?

miracle

It's kinda funny how some people just don't realise that they are asking one not to do this 'thing' that they don't like when actually they are in the same situation or maybe used to do that thing. You must know that this miracle thing is happening to me. What I don't understand is that, how can you not see that I'm happy? Yes, my heart might break into a trillion pieces with this choice I'm making, but I have never been this happy before. Isn't that all matters? 

Hey, I don't ask much but.. just be there when I needed you the most. Just like I always do to you. Maybe you don't even realise that. All you care about is yourself and your feeling, you never thought of anyone else.This choice might not be right but if being with him is wrong, then I don't wanna be right. I'm sure if you were me, you would do the same thing. Choosing things that will make you happy cause you can't think straight since your life have been miserable like, forever. Now that this miracle is happening, how can you not choose that? Even if this happiness might be just temporary. Even if you're not even sure about the future.